10 days until- BEACHHHHH with my best friends :)
17 days until- He comes home <3
7 days until - Four month anniversary
12 days until- BEACHHHHH with my best friends :)
19 days until- He comes home <3
In the dream I was laying in bed, about to go to sleep with one of my best friends Ava.
I started to fall asleep(in the dream) but I felt as though something was wrong. I “opened” my eyes and there was a man in the darkness staring at Ava (who had fallen asleep). I started to sit up as he got closer and closer to her. I knew his intentions. He went to grab her and she started screaming. She scrambled to pull herself towards me and I grabbed a hold of her back (she was laying on her side) and pulled her into me to try to move her behind me. I remember screaming no and thinking that I wont allow him to hurt her, not again. I remember thinking that if I just got her behind me and I could protect her that he would take me instead.
I succeeded. He grabbed me of the bed and started to pull me towards him. I was screaming and crying. I hated him. I don’t know who this “him” was but I hated him with every fiber in my being.
I clawed at his eyes, and dug my nails into his face. For whatever insane reason, there was a knife on the night stand. I managed to grab it and I stabbed him.
I stabbed him over and over and over until I couldn’t breathe.
I stopped and just stared then POOF he disappeared except for his clothes.
Turn off your gay box…right now.
I had an amazing day. I wish everyday could be this way. I wish I could take off with the three of them and just never come back. I don’t want to be here, there is nothing for me here. Just travel and never turn around. I want that more than anything…then maybe we could all just go to New York and live there :P
I can dream, right? I would be content. I would be happy.
I want to be happy…today made me happy (:
Ava knows who I’m talking about…
TING TING! AH DADDY!!! LOOK AT MUH TINNNNNNNNNNNNNGTING!
and Ava, Ryan, Doug and Cristina had all been stabbed by this man. I don’t know the reason why but…they got stabbed, multiple times.
Anyway, for some reason I couldn’t get to them…like I physically couldn’t get passed this invisible wall that was keeping me from them. So I kept running next to this barrier around them, crying and screaming for someone to help me because my friends were dying.
It was fucked up and it made me sad :(
But I checked with everyone and they’re still alive…so…its okay.